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Say Good-bye

I keep discovering that my best caregivers have left. Just about the time I am comfortable with people -- I discover they are leaving, or worse, they've moved on without saying good-bye.

Please note: I detest being denied closure! 

I understand that people have a right to move on or move up -- it's hardly a stretch to imagine a gifted, intuitive patient care technician (PCT) may want to strive for more, going back to school to become a nurse or a nurse that wants a more lucrative or challenging position. I do not begrudge them, I applaud their ambition. Not that long ago, I shared that ambition -- after all, I earned my college degree in accounting in 2005 facilitating a career change from administrative assisting.

However, a part of me, selfishly wishes they'd confide in me, share their plans for the future, be sure to say good-bye when they leave. My emotions do not differentiate between family, friends, caregivers these days. I get emotionally attached to those who attend to my daily needs and spend so much time with me.
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