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Clarification For the Love of It

While some people really Like and appreciate my blog, I learned that some members of my family are looking at as hurtful. I would like reassure my family that I love them and treasure them. I would also like them to know that my blog contains thoughts, feelings and perceptions at one point in time. This blog contains bizarre dreams brought on by stress and medication, mild though it is. I write to "exorcize my demons" so to speak.  I write to connect with fellow PALS (people with ALS), caregivers of PALS, fellow people in recovery, and the curious.

Can you imagine losing the power of speech and not be able to bounce ideas off of your best girlfriend; not be able to profess your love to your lover; not be able to confess a sin with your own lips; not be able to scream out your pain; not be able to call your sponsor; not to be able to sit with you and discuss an issue rationally?

My blog is a composite of who I am, who I used to be, and who I don't want to be. This blog is my best friend and my priest.
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